But not now, not now

I want to see the pink forest
and inhale the beauty of its spring
I can't close my eyes now
Not now, not now

I want to feel the snow on my palms
and freeze into its pure whiteness
I can't let go now
Not now, not now

I want to step on the world's greatest wall
and walk through its thousands of years
I can't stop now
Not now, not now

I can't give in now
Until I have you under the moon, love
and kiss you when the morning comes
Then I shall leave in peace

But not now
Not now

Betapa buta aku

Mengira hidup begitu murah
dan waktu begitu panjang

Kukira tidurku dibuai
dan mimpiku didengar

Kini cakrawala begitu dekat
namun bintang semakin jauh

Udara semakin pekat
dan gelap perlahan mewujud

Raga ini lebur
dan jiwa ini kehilangan asa

Cinta telah menguap
dan aku tinggal menghitung hari

In Memoriam

Junior

1997 - 25 July 2012

It's been a great journey, buddy.

I am so blessed to ever have the privilege to walk with you.

Where it began, where it ended

It is where I said I love you
and you said you miss me
It is where you left me
and I let you go

It is under the same roof where I hugged you
and made you cry
On the same floor where you kissed me
and broke my heart



The walls witnessed our mornings and nights
our laughs and curses
us being fools and clowns
building dreams, sculpting the future

The things we loved and shared
The things we claimed and took back

Somewhere there
maybe by the side of the dusty window
or as you laid down on top of the frameless hay
I hope you were happy
I hope you felt loved

I am blessed to ever walk side by side with you
and thankful for the tenderness
your endless thoughts
your smile

Hei, kau yang di seberang

Kututup dulu buku hati lalu kukunci dengan asa

Semoga suatu hari nanti boleh kau toreh lagi lembarannya dengan rayuan

Ayunkan lagi lengkung kurva yang seperti senyummu

dan garis yang tajamnya seperti binarmu

Lahirkan kata-kata nan manis seperti ciummu

dan cerita yang hangatnya seperti pelukmu

Sebab telah kau buat aku lunglai pada sapamu yang pertama

Si Item, Si Belang

Kuya,

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Tawamu lebih keras dariku
Mimpimu lebih manis dariku
Langkahmu lebih jauh dariku
Kekasihmu lebih baik dari kekasihku

Kuingin hidupmu lebih bermakna dariku

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